it sure didn't take her long to send me a nasty note. but, i was expecting it. here it is, and i will comment to it on each part (my comments are in bold type). after this, my friends, anyone who sends me any nasty messages from the bitchfest board will be put on auto-ignore.
from evil-edna:
Alright JJ, enough.
no, it's enough when i say it's enough. actually, it will never be enough for how deep you and a few others have cut me with your so-called "friendship". and unlike on your board that you and dave now run, i can say exactly what i want here. also, don't think i give a flying fuck what you choose to do about it.
Time to correct some of the lies you've been spouting. First off, why you were banned from BitchFest. You insisted that someone who had spouted offensive nonsense would be allowed to post. Not just her racist crap about Irish people JJ; you conveniently forget she waxed lyrical about how much she enjoyed watching 3,000 people die in the WTC atrocity.
i INSISTED that she post? that is crap. this is what i said, and i will quote it for ya: "anyway, i wanted to say that i've been talking back and forth with amber tonight, and she seems like a cool chick. why do i like her? because she is a shit-stirrer like the lot of us! lol! so i told her to come on over and join the fun - she'll fit right in." boy, i was trying to twist your fucking arm there, wasn't i? i was just INSISTING. please. and believe me, edna, i know exactly what amber wrote. i even listed the links to her entries, so everyone who wanted to could read what she wrote for themselves, remember? and did i say i condoned it, or agreed with it? nope. not once. i said i understood why she said what she said. i said i understood why she posted such hateful things. she was being attacked, so she posted a big FUCK YOU. just like any of us would, and you know it as well as i do. we may not have said some of the things amber did, but we would have gone straight for the jugular if we were attacked or pissed off at someone. i understood that, unlike you. so i got to know her, and i found out that deep down, she is a very good person. like i said, i didn't know that would be a major fucking offense. but honestly, i wouldn't have cared, because i don't step and fetch to you and dave. and guess what? i'm glad i got to know who amber really was, and didn't get sucked under into some more of your sick bullshit when it comes to attacking others on the internet because they write something you don't like. another thing: don't ever presume to know how i feel or felt about the september 11th attack on MY country, ok?
You never stopped to think that maybe some people who post on BitchFest lost friends in that tragedy, did you? No, you didn't because you're such a self-centred little cow you never take the time to find out anything.
yeah, that's it, edna. i never gave a damn how anyone on the board felt, or anyone else in the world. only me. only me me me. that is such a bunch of shit, and you know it. that's convenient too: no one even bothered to talk to me about it at the time, but now i've deeply hurt and offended other people at the board because of the losses they suffered in new york. i'm not saying they didn't, but of course, here you are, throwing it up in my face, when at the time, NO ONE COULD BOTHER TO WRITE TO ME OR IM ME ABOUT HOW THEY PERSONALLY FELT ABOUT THE WHOLE THING. what would you have had me do, edna? write to everyone who has ever posted on bitchfest and say, "hi. i'm thinking of befriending amber, and thought i would first ask you if you have suffered a loss due to september 11th?" and once again, edna, don't presume to know if i cared whether certain members of the board lost friends in the tragedy. don't stop and think how i may have felt about it, or how i joined some causes to help aid in the relief effort there, or how in getting to know a certain person on the internet from new york city, i learned about all the hell she went through, and learned from her what it was like for the people in new york on that day in talking to her about it for quite some time. you presume to think that because i didn't directly lose a loved one there, that i don't give a shit. god, get off your soapbox as if you care. quit acting so fucking self-righteous for just a sec, and cut us all a break, ok?
Secondly, I never gave a damn whether you talked to Liz Bateman or not. Why should I?
well edna, that shit is an out and out lie, and you know it. oh, you fucking cared, all right, because if you didn't, you would have never thrown it in my face about the truce when i was banned from the board, dear. but you did. the only reason you ever kept me around was to keep liz from saying "ha ha jj, i told you they would turn against you if you called a truce, and ha ha jj, i told you they would do the same to you in the end." and she was right all along, now wasn't she? for her part in the war we all had going with her, she sure was right about that. but me, i was the fucking fool in the end, because i believed you fucking cared about me as a friend. and boy was i sadly mistaken on that one.
You're the one who got her knickers in a twist. I just laugh at her. However, it did show me what a shallow little individual you really are.
yes, you are right there, i definitely had her pissed off. but i was the only one? are you fucking serious, edna? i mean seriously, in all the lot of us, she hated you the worst. and you damned well know it. and you just sit back and laugh at liz, right? then why don't you open up that private little forum you guys have going that's devoted to her then, if you are just sitting back and laughing from the sidelines? and let's talk shallow for just a sec. i tried my damnedest to be a true friend to you. but you? as soon as your boyfriend declares it, you skip out on that friendship in a heartbeat. but you skipped out a long time ago - you just didn't want to say it to me straight out. and if that's not shallow, i don't know what is. like i said before: if you were truly my friend, and gave half a flying shit about me, then you would have come to me a long time ago, via email or messenger, and talked with me about anything that was bothering you, and tried to work things out, before it came to all of this. but you were just sitting back and waiting to call off our friendship. to me, that is worse than shallow. to me, if that's what being a friend is, then i would rather be called shallow than be like you and some of the others at the board.
You talk about Kaitlyn? Go on JJ, tell your readers exactly what Liz did to Kaitlyn. Tell them how she posted her address all over the internet as well as other stuff that's far too nasty to repeat here. You know she did all that.
like i said in my last entry, edna: i never once denied any problems that you guys had with liz. i never once said that what you both were going through with her wasn't worth a shit. i never fucking said i thought that kaitlyn was a liar in that last entry i wrote. i said, and let me quote this for you, so you get it right next time:
"...but instead of being my friends, like i thought they were, they treated me as if i had said to them, "your feelings mean nothing to me. what has happened between you and liz doesn't mean anything." that wasn't the case at all. i was just tired of fighting, and tired of myself. i wanted some peace."
Grow up and get over yourself.
grow up and get over myself? that is truly a good one, coming from you. grow up? ok, so it wasn't me who wrote an entry and told everyone i was partly to blame for being banned from the board. it wasn't me who apologized for everything heartless and cruel that i have written about others unnessarily, and took responsibility for my actions, right? read what i wrote again, edna. it might help you out.
You used BitchFest to carry out you own little vendettas and then left the rest of us to mop up the shit you always started.
yeah, edna, it was always just me personally who started shit with other people. right. keep telling yourself that. keep lying through your fucking teeth. we ALL did it. we all went after people we didn't like, and especially you. so don't act fucking innocent here, like i just started a bunch of shit on the board all by my little lonesome, and then you guys had to come in and calm everyone down about it, because that is a load of shit.
I said nothing when it was on boards I had nothing to do with, but Dave and myself are responsible for the new board and we weren't going to take any more shit over the head of you and we certainly weren't going to let someone as mentally unstable and vile as Amber post on it. Frankly, your actions since you were banned completely removed any lingering doubts I may have had about the decision.
like i said before edna, i'm glad to be gone. i'm happy i was banned, now that i've had a chance to think it through. you and dave are running that board like a communist fucking regime. you both think that you can control who anyone that posts there talks to, what they say, who they offend, and who they befriend. and you know what? you've both turned into what you hate the most: HYPOCRITES. and do you think i give a shit if my actions took away your doubt about banning me? that just proves my point: you knew all along that banning me wasn't right. so now, you're just throwing out a bunch of excuses for your decision to ban me so bitchfest doesn't look bad. well i have news for you, edna. bitchfest has looked bad for a long time, and it began when you and kaitlyn started banning people right and left because you didn't like what they said on the board you created before this one. who would have thought it, and especially since you were once so against censoring posts, and all for anyone saying exactly what they thought? and one more thing: did you really think for one fucking SECOND that i was going to lay down and play dead over this shit? did you honestly think i was going to come begging you to change your mind, or shut my diary down forever, or never speak out against you and anyone else who thinks it's right that i was banned from the board? god i hope not. and to think i tried to just state my case in a halfway decent manner the first couple of times. my only mistakes were A) trusting in the fact that you and others that i considered good friends at the board would always be there for me, and B) going back on my word with liz and calling off the truce to keep from losing that friendship, which is completely against anything i personally believe in. i should have done what was best for me, and not for what was best for you. but like i said, it's over now, and i'm better off for it.
well, that's the end of what edna wrote to me (i knew it was coming - it was so fucking predictable). and like i said before - after tonight, i will write nothing else about this. if anyone leaves me a nasty note, i'll ignore it like the fucking plague. but, in closing, i would just like to say:
to edna: fuck you.
to david: fuck you.
to kaitlyn: fuck you.
and to anyone else from bitchfest who doesn't like what i wrote about this whole thing: fuck you.
you can ALL drop the fuck dead.
please note: i would like to say that i do not blame everyone from the board for my being banned. that is all on edna and david. secondly, i do not hate everyone who posts at bitchfest. i am only angry at some of the people who turned their backs on me after the ban and shrugged me off like i was no one to them. these are people i considered close friends and talked to daily. so it is to them that i say drop dead, and to no one else. and believe me, they know who they are. 12:06 a.m. ~ new deal: (i just saw this, after posting my entry) apparently, because i have had a falling out with edna, i don't deserve to have any friends outside of bitchfest that try to support me. check this shit out, people: (taken from my user notes, and written to me by my friend natalie: "*MuAh*...I still like you, all the same...LoL...Well, talk to you later, & I will continue to be a faithful reader to your diary, no matter what...And to EE, D, & K...Fuck them...Who needs people like that anyway...Perhaps they'll shrivel up & die lonely one day...And if so, who gives a shit...TTYL...Bai Girlie!!!!!" obviously, when edna stopped by to leave me a nasty message, she read through my user notes, and decided she needed to harass natalie just for being a friend to me. this is what edna wrote to natalie in her notes: "Here's a very good piece of advice for you. Next time you feel like shooting your mouth off about myself, my partner or my friends use whatever piece of shit that passes for a brain in your head and check your damned facts. None of us will be dying alone you contemptible little worm. JJ was banned from BitchFest because she insisted that we allow a racist to post. We don't have many rules, but we will NOT tolerate racism. Now if you have a fucking problem with that I suggest you go and join the KKK." damn, natalie really got her panties in a bunch, now didn't she? hahahahaha. like i said, there's someone else on the planet who can certainly dish some harsh shit out, but the hell if she can take it back. pathetic, isn't it? and edna, i really hope you aren't planning to harass every friend i have outside of bitchfest just because they are trying to support me. that's what REAL friends do for one another, remember? and i may be speaking out against you and bitchfest, but what do you care? you got what you fucking wanted - i'm gone now. so why do you care what i post about it? and you and dave certainly don't have to deal with "any more shit over the head of me" anymore as you put it, so what the fuck gives? go run your all mighty, all important board. oh, and one more thing - my advice to you: get a fucking grip, edna, and before it's too late. ps: what's funnier still is what natalie wrote back to edna. you can read it here. ta!10:06 p.m. - March 26, 2003
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