NEVER TRUST NEVER BELIEVE

it started when he breezed into my life, totally unexpected. we took a ride and talked, and i felt happier than i've ever been.....even when suspicions were whirling through my mind, like a voice that wouldn't quit screaming inside of my head.

but i still trusted.

i still believed.

it was late......we were both sick of seeing this dumpy little town, so we parked. we talked all night....like i have never talked to another human being in my life. i should have listened, though. i should have listened to that little voice screaming deep inside of my brain.

but does our heart ever listen?

i still trusted.

i still believed.

it came to that point it usually comes to.....i could see he wanted me as much as i wanted him. i was so scared, but i thought, why not take a chance? you have cared so long about this man, if he never calls, it's the chance you take. at least you were in his arms tonight.

he did call, but as soon as i let go of all those fears, as soon as that little voice shut up, he was gone. i guess i really knew it all along.

in the end, he didn't choose me.

never trust.

never believe.

-jj

i had a horoscope the next day after this happened, and the first line said:

"dreams are made along with parking cars".

right.