"...Map Mange Ou Sans Sel..."

SUMMERTIME
10:38 p.m. on April 30, 2002

i've been in a terrible melancholy mood lately....i don't know if it's the extra stress with my mom and the unemployment interview (which i had today), or if it's just the change in seasons. sometimes.....it's like, the coming of spring, and just the hint of summer around the corner - it just makes me feel as if there is something out there that i can't get a hold of, or is just out of my reach. it's like a constant yearning, a burning at the edges of my mind, and it makes my soul feel as if it could just fly away, at any moment, with no purpose, and no direction. just a feeling of being. just a constant feeling of being alive. it's intense, maddening, and wonderful, all mixed together. life is definitely a gamble. a gamble of faith in the future, a gamble of promise. and it scares the hell out of me.

that's all for now. i sound like a crazy person who's cookoo for cocoa puffs or something...i'm off to locate my sanity. i know i left it around here somewhere.

peace, i'm out~

summertime~ Summertime, time, time, Child, the living's easy. Fish are jumping out And the cotton, Lord, Cotton's high, Lord, so high. Your daddy's rich And your ma is so good-looking, baby. She's looking good now... Hush, baby, baby.... No, no...don't you cry. Don't you cry! One of these mornings You're gonna rise, rise up singing, You're gonna spread your wings, Child, and take, take to the sky, Lord, the sky. But until that morning Honey, nothing's going to harm you now, No, no, no.....Don't you cry!!

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