why do i have to torture myself?
sometimes, i wish i could be different. i hate being such an all-or-nothing kind of female: stubborn, proud, demanding...but at the same time, a woman with her heart in her hands, outstretched to the person she loves, handing it over...all the while keeping up that tough, stubborn, proud front...and all the while, tears running down her face. god i love him, and i am so angry at myself for allowing it to happen. Something has to change. Un-deniable dilemma. Boredom's not a burden Anyone should bear. Constant over stimu-lation numbs me and I wouldn't have It any other way. It's not enough. I need more. Nothing seems to satisfy. I don't want it. I just need it. To breathe, to feel, to know I'm alive. Finger deep within the borderline. Show me that you love me and that we belong together. Relax, turn around and take my hand... I can help you change Tired moments into pleasure. Say the word and we'll be Well upon our way. Blend and balance Pain and comfort Deep within you Till you will not have me any other way. It's not enough. I need more. Nothing seems to satisfy. I don't want it. I just need it. To breathe, to feel, to know I'm alive. Knuckle deep inside the borderline. This may hurt a little but it's something you'll get used to. Relax. Slip away... Something kinda sad about the way that things have come to be. Desensitized to everything. What became of subtlety? How can it mean anything to me If I really don't feel anything at all? I'll keep digging till I feel something... Elbow deep inside the borderline. Show me that you love me and that we belong together... Shoulder deep within the borderline. Relax. Turn around and take my hand... from the cd aenima~ by tool2:43 a.m. - July 31, 2003
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